Log in

Darkness in light

I heard your voice in the dark
The voice I hear when I'm alone
I find myself serching the night for you
You never show
You say you love me in the dark
But in the light you turn away
You hold me close in the dark
But in the light you let me go
What am I to think when you leave
Leave everything behind and dissapear into the light
I've cried million tears for you, I shouted until I couldn't
I've bled for you and you still turn away into the light
I wait for the day when the darkness in me turns into light
Until I'm able to be in your arms again
I shall wait for your eyes look into mine without fear of the darkness

My soul

Can you see my flesh turning purple?
Can you see your mark on my thigh?
I've got nothing else for you to gain except the milky whiteness of my flesh changing colours under your touch
You'll be waiting in vain, I will not scream
I will not beg
When I'm bad I'm your to do with as you will
I will not be a sheep and follow you into the night
I will look away when I cry
I will bite lips when it hurts, I have nothing to gain if I disobey
I will meet your gaze with obiendence
I will not falter in my loyalty but I will not beg and I will not scream
You say I will learn to hate you
I say it ain't so
You say that I'm to far gone, that I need this from you
I say it ain't so
You say I'm strange
I say I'm in love

New Story

Hey all new story I know, I know most of mine are very short drabbles but I'm trying to extened my stories and work out my writing but RL gets in the way sometimes and I cant concentrate.

Title: Comparisons
Author: Wheezielou
Pairing: Jack/Ianto, mentions of Ianto/OMC, Gwen/Rhys, Owen and Tosh
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None
Disclaimer: I don't own them or Torchwood, but if I did certains things wouldn't have happened!!!
Summary: Songfic, Ianto finally realises that nothing compares to the one you truley love.

Authors notes: This story is inspired but listening to Katy Perry's Thinking Of You to many times and trying to block out COE. As always story is unbeated.

Read more...Collapse )

May. 15th, 2009

So my uncle died last week and I've been up in Middlesborough since Sunday afternoon, it's very strange being up there as I havent seen or spoken to my family in 5 years, well since my aunt died. My cousin Joanne has now got four kids, Thomas, Hannah, Grace and Isabell, all beautiful children but Grace (who is in no means graceful or gracious) rules the roost and the fact she's the only one who is blonde haired and blue eyed!!
My cousin Debbie, who I look most like has three children, Daniel whose in the army now, Sophie the beautican trainee and Leah whose in school. Sophie looks just like Debbie its unreal.
My biological father David was there, as my uncle was his brother. It was very strange, the night before the funeral I didnt sleep very well and it was due to anxeity about seeing him.
The funeral was ok, i dunno if you can say a funeral was good or bad??, I gave him a hug when we first got there on Monday morning but I didnt feel anything for him at all!! Me, my sister and my mum didnt realise that Jo and Deb wanted us in the cars with them so we went with them, all that could be heard in our car was sniffling, my mum went with my neice in the brother and sisters cars.
We went back to Jo's house and it was full of people I didnt know and few I did, i spent most of it with little Bella on me. Nobody noticed that David was getting drunk, cause he smokes he was outside more of the time he was there. Only when he came in the house did my mum notice that he was wobbling and drunk. I thought I could escape without having to speak to him, I know that its mean but that man hasnt even bothered with me and my sister for nearly 16 years so why should I be bothered with him. I have a dad a stepdad, even though he's sometimes can be a shit he's my dad and I love him!!
So I thought I had escaped but I was stood talking to Deb and mum, he called my name for me to come to him in the kitchen, which stupidly I did!! Drunkenly he told me how proud he was of me, and my sister, that even though he hasnt spoken to us that he loves us and then he wanted to know if I was willing to contact him and keep in touch. Then when I thought he was gonna leave, he broke down and hugged me. I hugged him back and mouthed to Jo to help me!!
Once he left, i got asked if I was ok, couldnt say anything, i just burst into tears!!
I don't know what to do now, should I contact him? A man who I havent had a conversation with for so many years, i dont know anymore!!

I am alive

Hey I am alive just havent had a working computer and at the mo using my sisters notebook!!! I have a new story but i just have to finish it :)
anyhoo look for the new story soon it will be a bit teary!


you promised I'd be the only one
You promised forever
I gave you my all and you just let me fall
Nevermind what's done is done
I thought we were the lucky ones
I promised I'd be forever yours
Twist and turns this story unravels
What will I do when forever ends?
What if I won't let you go?
You threw me in the fire
A fire that lasts forever
What if I do, love?
What if I don't let go?
Forever isn't what it used to be?


Lovefool 2

Title: Idiot
Author: Wheezielou
Rating: NC17 for language
Charcters: Jack/Ianto mentions of Gwen/Rhys
Spoilers: None
Disclaimer: Not mine I just like to break their hearts
Summary: Jack really is an idiot.
Warnings: Tissues again people, I know mean mean mean!!

Authors notes: Short and painful guys you've been warned!!

Read moreCollapse )


Take A Bow

Title: Lovefool
Author: Wheezielou
Rating: I guess NC-17 for language
Characters: Jack/Ianto mentions of Gwen
Spoliers: None
Disclaimer: Not mine, I just like to play with them once in awhile!!
Summary: What a fool!
Warning: You might need tissues people feeling quite mean today!

Author's notes: One shouldn't write stories when listening to depressing music and feeling like crap!! Story based on Rihanna's Take A Bow. If i'm in the writing mood tomorrow there might be a sequal but you'll have to wait and see.

Read moreCollapse )

Writer's Block: The Meaning of Love

What does love mean to you, and why? Have you always felt this way?

What does love mean to me?.................
Love is the binding of ones soul to another even if it's for a short time.
Love that blinding thing that makes us all insane and sane at the same time.
Love is that giddy feeling of being on a rollacoster and eventually it stops and you're sad for a while and swear never to get on it again but you know you will.

I used think love was for fools but now I can't wait for my very own rollacoster ride!

Sea Of Love

Title: Looking Inside
Author: Wheezielou
Characters: Jack/Ianto mention of the Doctor
Rating: pg-13
Spoilers: Season 3 of DW and Season 1 of TW
Disclaimer: Not mine if they were they would two very tired boys lol
Summary: Jack realises life has a way of giving and taking.

Authors Notes:
My first ever published M/M story that is completed, this short fic contains the song from Cat Power which inspired me to write it, if you havent heard it, it's on my LJ if you want to down load it.

Read more...Collapse )